Monday, 2 January 2017

Finally, 2016 ended.  365 days.  i just don't know what have i've done and achieved last year.  2016, the upside down of my days continued.  nothing much happened to me.  i still live in the same sarang burung, i drove the same car, i worked with the same company.

however, there are also great things happened even its very little.  i revisit Bali.  i further my study (even sometimes i've regretted it), i ran 140km in 2016 and participated in 9 events.  1 - 3km, 4 - 5km, 2- 6km, 1 - 10km and 1 - 12 - km.. wowww! this is crazy.  really crazy!  i can't believe that i can run and 12km is the farthest run in my live.  i'm sure that i am out of my mind..

so.. lets recap on my new year resolutions and my achievement even though nothing great happened...

2016. i wish for:-
1. materialise my dream to own my own crib. - i didnt achieve this.. i've carry forward this to so many years.. i just don't work hard for it and depends on someone else to do it for me...

2. further study. - i registered as a PG on March 2016 and in my end of first year.  congratulations!

3. consistence 2nd income. im a crocheter and a knitter. (not all malaysia value hand made product.. huhu) - i didnt take this seriously since i am busy with my study..

4. keep fit. at least join the running competition every quater.. (this is really really hard) eat clean.. in a way.. lose some weight and fat.. huh! this is like every year wish list.. hehe - i've mentioned this.  and additional info.. i didnt loose any weight instead, i gain some kg.  i am 47kg now! what the eff??

5. 50gm of 916 or 999.9 - i bought but dont know how many

6. save for rainy days. - i didnt save. i spent instead.  kihkihkih


2017.  what i wish in 2017?

1. i still wanted buy a house of my own.  instead of depend on someone else to find for me, i think its time for me to do it myself.  i cannot depend on people for the rest of my life kan?

2. since i am a PG, i wish i can defense my proposal by the end of 2017.

3. participate in 4 10km running events. lose some weight and fat..

4. live life to the fullest and enjoy every moment of my life.


that's all! to be frank, i just dont know what i want.  i just want to live my daily life without worrying about anything and live happily..

ok that all for now.  i have to go since it is 3.53am in the morning.

Wednesday, 21 December 2016

tata 2016?

2016 will soon leave us. i haven't finalise my new year resolution.

so what should be the ideal and realistic new year resolutions for me? 

adoi! for sure.. running will be in the list. bucket list maybe!


Friday, 25 November 2016

new chapter

woke up in the morning with the new chapter in life. time flies. u r someone that i dont know now.

u dont need me anymore. or in actual fact.. u never needed me in ur life. 

its true that people change. and little that i realise this hurt me much. it hurt me badly. so badly.


Thursday, 24 November 2016

Hati yang kau sakiti

You broke my heart into pieces sampai saya tak tau macamana nak cantum balik. Sampai saya tak tau macamana baikinya. Sampai saya tak tau nak buat apa..

Hati saya hancur berkecai awak buat.. Saya tak tau macamana nak hadap awak.. 

Kenapa keputusan itu yang awak buat? Kenapa? Awak dah betul2 fikir? Apa yang awak nak sebenarnya?

Awak.. Saya betul-betul kecewa dengan awak.. 

Tahun ke 10 tanpa ayah.. Ayah.. i wish u here.. I really really wishhhhh..