Monday 21 May 2012

Barbie Doll

I am not a Barbie doll... I am a human with feelings... I hope you understand...

Sunday 6 May 2012

Price for freedom and dignity...

if that is the price that i need to pay for my freedom and dignity... i will pay for it... no question ask...

you can say that i am selfish... yes i am... im tired with everything... i just a want a peace of mind... thats all that i want...

and there goes my europe trip...

Friday 4 May 2012

how long will i be in this situation?? im afraid of been caught and hit.. i wish i can run away... but i cannot... i promise to mom.. i wont run away...

last tuesday i found a bruises with a clear fingers mark at my right hand... and a deep scratches at my head... wat else can i say... im in trauma... trauma of being hit again...

today... i wish for a better tomorrow... there's always a rainbow after the rain... but the bruises with a clear fingers mark and scratches will remain in my mind even thought it wont be there for long...

Thursday 3 May 2012

No return chapter...

End of April 2012 and May 2012 will be the worst month in my history.. I cannot explain why.. I dun even have the word to explain why.. Cause no one will understand my feelings..

I tought I have a shoulder to cry on when im in trouble.. When I am at the lowest point of my life.. And it remain as my tought.. No one will be my shoulder to cry on.. No one!

People around me will said I did the wrong thing.. I did the most stupid thing.. But to me.. I did the right thing.. And I can see the true colors of everybody..

To mom..

I'm truly sorry for hurting you.. I don't mean it.. I don't wish to hurt u.. U are my everything in this world.. Mom... Im really sorry.. This is from the bottom of my heart.. I love u mom...

The future is uncertain but the end is always clear..

Tuesday 1 May 2012

the untold story..

i tak jadi kawin.. sebab i yang mintak dibatalkan.. thats all..