Allah lebih sayangkan Aimi

Allah lebih sayangkan Aimi.. itu saje kata2 yang mampu aku ungkapkan tatkala mendapat berita pemergian Aimi subuh tadi.

mesej dari ibunya berulangkali aku baca.. aku denial.. aku tak dpt terima kenyataan.. aku tak tau apa perasaan aku.. aku tak tau patut ke aku percaya atau tidak..

air mata menitik laju tatkala sampai di rumah atoknya..

Aimi Sarah bukan adik ku.. tapi dia aku ibaratkan sebagai adik aku sendiri.. mengenalinya.. menasihatinya.. mengingatkannya..

'Aimi Sarah.. tenanglah dikau di sana dik.. kak Nurul takkan pernah lupa pada Aimi..'

different between 5 months and 11 years..

after 5 months working with Proton.. head hunter callled request for CV..

11 years working with Perodua.. no one called request for CV..

what the heck??!! 

its 2015! what's new?

its 2015 people? so what's new? resolutions? as usual.. we have tons of unfulfilled resolutions..

what happened to me in 2014..

1. i quit from Perodua. after 11 years.. i left the company without any tears. not even a drop. Perodua.. a company.. a college and a stepping stone for where and who i am today.

2. i managed to get myself in UiTM for PHD. however.. i didnt turn up during the registration day.. not because i dont want.. but i have to turn down the offer for a while..

3. i worked for Proton since August 2014. some said i sell my soul to the devil. hey people.. you just dont know.. some people can excel in Perodua and some dont have the opportunity like yours. so i have to go my own way.. you just dont know people.. you just dont know..

4. Proton. turn my world upside down.. and im still happy the next day.

5. my only brother married to the girl he loves. he is a husband now. how i wish he is still my little brother. 

i still remember i said orbituary to my previous life on 2013. to be franked.. i didnt remember my last reso. i just live my life as what being fated for me.

and for 2015..

1. i wish i could have a house of my own. my shelter and my crib.

2. i wish to be a better person. not that im bad all this years (hell yeah.. i am a bad person.. a bad singer.. a bad daughter.. a bad friend)

3. i wish i could excel in everything that i do.. (even the stone could turn up and become a diomond.. so do i kan??)

4. i wish i could spent wiser and stop buying bags and all the unnecessaries.. save for rainy days.. more important isnt it??

5. only the devil wears prada.. so prada next? 

thought

having a second thought of what im going to do or to be next is something that really makes me headache.

i might fly high.. or i might fell down untill i dont know how to get up..

im just human.