i flop!

this entry is wrote on 20.4.2016 . due to some error it doesnt publish. sigh! and i just notice it today.

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do u know what is the most teribble feelings?

when you flop your test. not all people have that kind of feeling but i do. 

being no so popular child.. being the most tak pandai child.. will make u have that feeling..

u tried ur best to be like your pandai siblings.. but somehow.. u always failed ur exam.. u didnt manage to get all the A's in the exam.. 

and it will hunt u.. wherever and whenever u r.. even u has the highest cert compared to ur siblings now.. it hunt u.. the feelings..

note: i flopped my test last nite! im so down and demoralise. 

bila orang tanya..

bila orang tanya aku.. aku sambung blajar apa.. as in aku ambik course apa.. honestly.. aku malu nak jawab kat orang tu yang aku sedang buat doctrate..

bukan sebab aku nak tunjuk pandai atau pura-pura bak low profile ke.. sesungguhnya tidak.. tapi.. lebih kepada

1. aku segan nak bagitau orang.. buatnya aku withdraw?? nauzubillah! mintak-mintak dijauhkan..

2. aku tak suka nak bg org pikir aku pandai sedangkan aku tak pernah rasa aku pandai.. haih! i wonder how i survived during my MBA's days

3. aku tak pernah rasa doctrate ni sesuatu yang perlu dibanggakan.. dulu ya.. aku bangga dapat buat degree.. sebab tujuan aku masa tu lain.. sekarang ni tujuan aku lebih kepada nak dapatkan ilmu.. nak belajar.. nak manfaatkan ilmu..

4.  aku tak rasa perkataan doctrate tu perlu di bold italic blink blink font 72! aku tiru ayat dr kamril tu.. aku setuju dengan dia.. buat doctrate ni lebih kepada merendah diri.. bukan nak tunjuk hebat.. habis belajar pun belum lagi dik non.. tak payah nak lagak sangat..

hang in there Net! the journey just started..

journey to DBA

since i wish to write my DBA journey in details.. i hv prepared a journal.

tadaaaa!!

ha! nampak tak semangat sem pertama.. 

a student again!

finally a student again! my fourth times registered as a college student..

i arrived at UiTM on quarter to 10am.  then after some lost while finding the location finally managed to locate the main entrance of Dewan Agong Tuanku Chansellor where all the process begun..

i skipped bursary counter.. payment made yesterday at bank islam.. so i dont need to que for the counter..

i only need to go to counter faculty, counter ID card and finally the counter where i have to submit all the documents..

frankly, i dont know what's ahead.. redah je.. it may look easy but its not as easy as what your eyes seen..

my first time registered as UiTM student.. hahahah! the best part.. im the only one who came with fitflop! it didnt mention any attire on the website or anywhere.. so i just wore shirt, jeans and fitflop.. nasib tak pakai short dress! 

first pressure i gain today is.. the class will starts on 29 Feb 2016.. oh my anya!! im suppose to be on a vacation!

can u see that?? the class havent started  but i felt the pressure already.. to choose bali or class..

knowing myself.. i will definitely let go bali.. i dont mind loosing the ticket.. but i cant afford missing the class.. bali will be there forever (ayat penyedap hati)..

to come to this stage is not an easy journey to me.. it's a very long journey.. not forgotten the tears and sweats.. i hope i can make it through again this time..

this is not my dream at first.. this is not even my dream now instead.. but this is the journey i choose.. 

this is part of the life i've created!