Barbie Doll

I am not a Barbie doll... I am a human with feelings... I hope you understand...

Price for freedom and dignity...

if that is the price that i need to pay for my freedom and dignity... i will pay for it... no question ask...

you can say that i am selfish... yes i am... im tired with everything... i just a want a peace of mind... thats all that i want...

and there goes my europe trip...

how long will i be in this situation?? im afraid of been caught and hit.. i wish i can run away... but i cannot... i promise to mom.. i wont run away...

last tuesday i found a bruises with a clear fingers mark at my right hand... and a deep scratches at my head... wat else can i say... im in trauma... trauma of being hit again...

today... i wish for a better tomorrow... there's always a rainbow after the rain... but the bruises with a clear fingers mark and scratches will remain in my mind even thought it wont be there for long...

No return chapter...

End of April 2012 and May 2012 will be the worst month in my history.. I cannot explain why.. I dun even have the word to explain why.. Cause no one will understand my feelings..

I tought I have a shoulder to cry on when im in trouble.. When I am at the lowest point of my life.. And it remain as my tought.. No one will be my shoulder to cry on.. No one!

People around me will said I did the wrong thing.. I did the most stupid thing.. But to me.. I did the right thing.. And I can see the true colors of everybody..

To mom..

I'm truly sorry for hurting you.. I don't mean it.. I don't wish to hurt u.. U are my everything in this world.. Mom... Im really sorry.. This is from the bottom of my heart.. I love u mom...

The future is uncertain but the end is always clear..

the untold story..

i tak jadi kawin.. sebab i yang mintak dibatalkan.. thats all..